Birthmom story of love and open adoption
When Katherine found out she was pregnant, she connected with our Options Counselor and Birth Parent Clinician, Crystal, through Providence Health & Services. Our staff helped Katherine navigate through her pregnancy options while supporting everyone involved through a successful adoption.
I found Crystal through Providence Express Urgent Care when I found out I was pregnant. After leaving Providence, my mom and I went home and called Crystal to let her know that we were interested in exploring adoption. We set up a meeting and Crystal came over to our home and explained how the adoption process works. Crystal showed me an example of a family book. I was already interested.
Days, weeks go by and Crystal gave me 5 books to choose from. I narrowed it down to two of my favorites. I met and interviewed both couples. After a day or two I knew Annette and Erik were the ones that I wanted to raise Emma. They made me feel like family and that is what I wanted when it came to picking a family for Emma. We had an instant connection and they like the same things that I like.
My baby girl Emma was born on April 2nd 2019 at Providence St. Vincent Hospital. When she was born I cried. I was so emotional. It was the best day of my life, I hold my baby girl as much as I can. My Mom, Dad, Annette and Erik held her and later that evening my aunt came and she held my baby girl too.
The next day was one of the hardest days of my life. All morning I held my baby girl. That afternoon I cried, cried signing those adoption papers, I had so much sadness going on. At about 3:30pm my baby girl was placed in Annette's arms. I cried. And all I could do was tell my baby girl was that I will miss and love her so much. Leaving the hospital without Emma was so hard, I cried a lot that night because I missed her so much. But all I could tell myself is that Emma will forever be my baby girl and no one could ever take that away from me.
To this very day I think of Emma every day. I am always thinking about her and she means the world to me. I always look forward to a visit her or seeing pictures of Emma and getting my monthly updates. They do make me cry, But it is a good cry. She will forever be my baby girl. She will forever have a piece of me and I will forever have a piece of her. My baby girl is so special to me. She makes my days.